~seraphic-shock

*sigh* I need to spend more time working and less time writing bitchy journal entries.

I haven't made a lot lately, as living expenses are pretty harsh.

But I'll upload anything new I can come up with.

So generally, I'm ok, my cats are ok and life is all around boring.

Sales are pretty slow, waking up early on Saturdays to work the farmer's market sucks and all I do is watch anime and read manga. Go, me.

So, what's new with YOU?

Got dumped again. He "got scared. It's too soon and I can't stop thinking about how bad it got and I got scared that I was gonna' end up in trapped in the same situation again. Just give me a few weeks, ok?"

Guess what? He's talking to another girl that his precious mommy introduced him to. Pretty convenient that he "got scared", huh?

I'm sick of hearing "I care a lot about you" then being treated like shit by the man I'm STILL in love with.

Know what? Time to move on. I can't wait to meet someone new that may actually treat me like a human instead of being a selfish prick bastard that's so hung up on himself that he can't see anything else.

I don't need this. I've got enough on my plate without this.

So, lots of things.

Ow: Had to go to the ER twice. Had ultrasound. Found gallstones. Had gall bladder surgery. Drugs. Mmmmm...

Ahh: Day OF surgery, house catches on fire. Crammed cats in carriers and ran outside half naked. Everyone's ok. Smoke and structural damage in some apartments. Mine smells like a woodstove.

Ohhhhh: Back with ex that made me hate Halloween. Kind of. We're "seeing" each other and all that jazz but it's still under wraps. Date five tonight.

That's about it in a nutshell.

Why? Because my boyfriend told me to move out and broke up with me that night, in the middle of me being diagnosed with bipolar disorder and a two week partial hospitalization in a psyche ward.

Since then, I've been seeing more doctors than I have my entire life, been put on more meds than I ever thought I'd take (not the right ones yet, though) and pining over the man that I thought I'd be with for the rest of my life, that may or may not ever want anything to do with me again, that may already be over me and moving on.

My illness ruined my relationship and my life. That's all.

Believe it or not, I'm still kickin'.

It's been a long, hot summer in good ol' Southwest VA.

I've been doing shows about once a month (only one of which was a great success), making things here and there and trying to promote my tail off!

If you're feelin' froggy, you can check out all the newness in my Etsy shop. Most of it isn't posted here. [link]

I had a cervical cancer scare in July. My pap came back abnormal and I had to have a colposcopy and a biopsy, but the lesions aren't advanced enough for surgery.

Hopefully, it will clear itself out, but for now they're just keeping an eye on it.

I got another kitty, too. He's a grey tabby that was dumped behind a pizza joint in the next town over.

He and Ki LOVE each other, and I'm so glad that she's not bored all day anymore.

Here they are if you wanna' take a gander: [link]

I hope everyone's had a great summer and that fall's been good to you thus far.

Maybe I'll be around more often. I'll try, anyway.